sassy is jane's mom or aunt or something along those lines

well, well. i'm ending the day at ol' work here, using the last free moments of computer time before i leave for the new holland brewery for a lecture on god and the workplace. odd discussion to be having in a bar setting, but this IS the new holland brewery after all. anways, it's a chance to catch up with some of my favorite people, and anyways, you just never know. maybe i'll find religion in a brewery.

i've had some interesting talks with friends over the past couple of days; it seems that i'm not the only person in the universe about to undergo some major life changes. besides the obvious life changes of several close friends that involve marriage or whether to purchase a new home or buy a goldfish, it seems the horizon is a little lost for quite a few of my friends. it's weirdly comforting in a way, like we can all hold hands and go into the great unknown together. i've always liked group projects. big apple everyone? let me know.

this is a lot of rambling - it reflects the way i've felt lately. each moment seems to bring a new emotion: confusion, excitement, sadness, anger, anxiety and once in a while, undistilled happiness. those are the good moments. they remind me that i can be a strong person who goes after what she wants. sometimes i lose sight of that, but change brings introspection, and that's usually a good thing for me. something that scares me, however, is my desire for change is part of my character: i'll find something, be happy, something sad or bad will happen, and i'll leave. i need to really assess my reasons for wanting to get out. leaving to prove a point is not good - but something in me really wants to try my hand at big things. or big citiies anyway.

my dad let me see some of his college sculptural work this weekend. i did not know he had ever sculpted - he even had a work of my aunt sitting in a chair with her favorite sweater. strange when you discover something so cool about a parent. how i stared.

apologies for this boring post.